they altered themselves... mentally

i ain't got friends/
i don't want em/
just a grubby situation/
made for stabbin backs/
rubbin off relations/
you want something/
i do too/
we create a network/
laugh together/
drinkin brew/
maybe liquor/
smokin drugs/
anything for fun/
for good times/
for love/
for easy transitions/
to casual hangin/
call the girls around/
call the guys around/
keep it real/
pair off/
some get left out/
go home/
jerk off/
work horse/
lazy fuck/
we range around the spectrum/
brown nose/
flax seed/
she's protective of her rectum/
nose and nipple rings/
chloroform helps me rip em off/
i collect em/
trophies/
just like herpes/
reminders of achievments/
but/
whatever/
we talkin bout friends/
or/
the lack of/
the black gloves/
i had em on when i did it/
black book/
black list/
black bloody shit/
liver problems/
a good buddy on your girlfriend's clit/
that shit scars/
the way we let relations develop/
relations envelop/
i can't remember the last round of innocent fun/
cause the evil is so much easier to see/
we label it/
enable it/
turning cheeks cause we long for sensation/
long for contact/
we let shit fly/
let the fan spin/
let the fans in/
fame is overrated/
have you ever dated someone famous/
is the pussy exponentially better/
the smells/
the raw feels/
does it all make more sense/
less sense/
more sensation/
better settings/
nicer surroundings for my fatal stroke/
for my death orgasm/
bloody skull/
cracked across the tiles/
all smiles/
life trickles down the drain/
but/
nevermind that/
all smiles/
this musing is fantastic/
elastic waistband wrapped around my dick/
trying to delay/
for pleasure/
to really flip the lids/
the readers of my script/
the path life/
so much good time/
i made it that way/
active participation/
melding in to my surroundings/
you don't know shit/
you know my value to you/
low self-esteem/
and/
delusional fits/
metal face talked about it/
using deep fried friendz/
but songs play/
and/
they end/
we live perpetual/
time extends from us/
we sleep/
but/
the up time comes/
meet you at the beach ho/
to your face; lovely lady/
we can fuck raw/
but/
i really hope we don't have babies/
cause your genetics will turn our child into a bitch/
either sex/
i don't want it/
so maybe i will throw the condom on/
cause you are an ornament/
a nice feeling for my dick/
a hand alternative/
i will still do the yoga/
i will still look out my window at the teenage chicks/
you don't know shit about me/
the feel of my hair/
the smell of my feet/
the important things/
the shade of my teeth/
involuntary isolation/
the way i roll/
15 humans in 14 holes/
who got the belly warmer for the night/
or was it dp exposed/
we don't know/
we can only guess/
did i mean holes in the ground?/
or/
holes in a ho?/
certainly the ground/
its about who goes down/
who goes in there to keep me company/



the good songs turn off/
and/
a stroke of bad luck leaves me with the shit i don't want to know/
just like a lovely voice on the phone/
great images/
good memories/
amongst a sea of shit that almost destroyed my life/





hello friends/
i may like you/
may love you/
but/
from time to time/
it will be fuck you/
cause ya'll deserve it/
just like i do/
so every once in a while/
remember that you are a piece of shit/
just like i do/
for me/
and/
for you/
because/
i have either forgotten happiness/
or/
i don't believe in it/




isn't that so sad/
i hope that your judgment is raw/
pitty is not welcome/
a piece of shit is in no position to judge another piece of shit/
the location may be different/
but the stench/
or at least/
the relative foul-level is somewhat the same/
maybe not/
call it denial/

or/


that which i need to do to live with myself/